And finally, the marathon of birthday celebrations for Noah and Cara is over for another year. 9 years old today...
If Matt's birthday is the only day that feels wholly and legitimately right to celebrate his life, then the kids birthday feels like the only day it feels wholly and legitimately wrong to have to spend without him. Ive now done this single parent birthday thing 3 times, and yet each time I am floored anew when I face the two birthday cakes and realise that even with a house full of family, I feel I need to try and carry both. It's the only day of the year when I'm not sure I've got this whole single parenting thing. Those kids should have their dad on their birthday. Full stop. I usually write positive posts; posts about how Ive managed to change up my life to meet this challenge, and for the most part I am genuinely ok. But I think its important to share the days when it isnt ok, so that facebook isnt just about the shiny happy stuff, so that its actually real. Next year they turn double digits. Someone order the vodka for me now
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